Hi lostnbigcity

I do understand when you feel like you are lost, because someone that you really love is just not there. Sometimes they know when they have you right where they want you. This is how they like to control you, and you are feeling trapped. What I can suggest is to find that place where you feel comfortable and go to it also reach out to your family. You will be surprised what they will do for you if you have had enough. Just pray on it and ask for direction. You will find the answer.