Thanks for the tips.

Regarding whether or not I show my illness in front of her - well, I try REALLY hard not to. I don't want her to know that Mommy's not okay. But sometimes she does see me - especially when I am deep in the depresison side and I just lay in bed all day, and when she comes to get me I say "sorry, Mommy's sleeping" and she's all alone. I hate that I do that, yet I still do it.

And she might have seen quite a bit over the summer - I was in & out of hospitals for 3 months, 3 suicide attempts. She saw me in the hospital a few times. But she was only 3, I'm not sure how much she really understood.

I do want to tell her when she's old enough to understand. I don't want to hide it - I spent my entire life hiding it from everyone, I don't want to do that anymore. And I want her to feel like it's okay to talk and share about those feelings.