Sometimes things come in 4s.......

Even if I have to go in for the weekend and someone else be with H on our weekend away-----spinning and churning.

Long T session--over time even---worked toward stabilization--did pretty good--then another e-mail waiting for me.......why did i read it? i know there is a delete button.....i have "STUPID" engraved on my forehead and gut wretching pain in my heart. not even mad anymore---just hurting...
it really is my fault