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Old Apr 23, 2009, 03:55 PM
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It comes in 3s right??? a third emotional blow---should be better from now?????

i am done. want a nice peaceful weekend. need to shut down the system. can't take anymore right now. not another emotional hit with a 2x4. can't do it. even breathing isn't working for me.....

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Old Apr 23, 2009, 04:01 PM
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Old Apr 23, 2009, 04:47 PM
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You have been through an awful lot of stress recently. Take time to regroup.

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Old Apr 23, 2009, 05:00 PM
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i never cry---seeing T in a bit. don't want to look stupid crying--
she knows i never cry.
naomi does or the littles--
but if someone doesn't things will be quite bottled up and may
explode.....
LOL what a picture--more stars in pretty colors.

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Old Apr 23, 2009, 09:08 PM
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were so sorry you are having a rough time. Healing good thoughts coming your way. Peace and a hug if that is safe. Your in our thoughts. ThaCrew
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Old Apr 23, 2009, 09:23 PM
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Please find a way to get through this as best you can. Again, I wish you a new strength to envelope your heart and hold you steady.
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Old Apr 23, 2009, 09:44 PM
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Sometimes things come in 4s.......

Even if I have to go in for the weekend and someone else be with H on our weekend away-----spinning and churning.

Long T session--over time even---worked toward stabilization--did pretty good--then another e-mail waiting for me.......why did i read it? i know there is a delete button.....i have "STUPID" engraved on my forehead and gut wretching pain in my heart. not even mad anymore---just hurting...
it really is my fault
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Old Apr 23, 2009, 10:08 PM
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Dear wi,

Crying is really okay hun. Hug a stuffie. We like you. No great words of wisdom. DID is yukky. We really understand.

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Old Apr 24, 2009, 05:52 PM
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Old Apr 25, 2009, 11:30 PM
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Hey white_iris,
We hope your weekend was restful and YOU did something for yourself(s)! Just want you to know it's not your fault AND that we are thinking about you guys.
You guys have come sooooooooo far, PLEASE Don't Give Up now.
Just want you to know Later Alligator, ThaCrew
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Old Apr 26, 2009, 03:40 PM
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quote=ThaCrew;1006632]Hey white_iris,
We hope your weekend was restful and YOU did something for yourself(s)! Just want you to know it's not your fault AND that we are thinking about you guys.
You guys have come sooooooooo far, PLEASE Don't Give Up now.
Just want you to know Later Alligator, ThaCrew[/quote]

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Old Apr 26, 2009, 06:53 PM
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Old Apr 26, 2009, 06:59 PM
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Old Apr 26, 2009, 07:55 PM
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Had a very good weekend. Was able to contain all the emotions that needed to be contained. Went clothes shopping with a friend, to a flea market and yard sales with H, out to dinner with friends---good conversations, no heavy stuff, good food, first cookout of the year......

Now I'm home........continuing to work on containment. It's harder at home...

Thank you all for your support. This is a tough issue I'm going thru. I know i'll get thru it----but it's gonna take alot of work.....
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Old Apr 26, 2009, 08:28 PM
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I'm so glad you had a good weekend. am here, thinking of you and sending hugs
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Old Apr 28, 2009, 12:38 PM
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Saw T today. Realize that relationship with friend is unhealthy and toxic. I' think i've always known that. Just got too involved. The whole abuse cycle---we'd have a disagreement or a fight, i'd apologize, things would be ok for a bit then i would do something that set her off and she'd be mad, blaming, venomous and throw the guilt on big time---i go over and over what did i do and can't match my behaviour with what she claims i have done--but i would apologize, cry and say i'm sorry--and things would be good for awhile till i would do so

something like not answer her texts for a few days......then the abuse would start again......

so this time i have made the decision to end the relationship....really for sure this time. and what i need is lots of support.

i want to go inside and not face the fallout or the pain of ending this relationship. I want to do anything to avoid having to live thru this---
always before in abusive relationships i have gone just so far living with the pain and the panic and anxiety then apologize and get sucked in again.
I don't want to go there this time, but i have never lived thru the uncomfortable, painful feelings to the point of my own resolution without running back to the abuser......and that is what she is---an abuser.

so logically i know. i know what i have to do. i know the steps. i know some of the pain i have to walk thru-------

i'm scared, panicked, anxious. I am trying to put together support ppl who will encourage and sit with me when i am feeling like i can't take the pressure any more and i want to surrender and go back.

This is where i am right now---and that's not even going to where others inside are.....that's part of the mess.
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