oooooo don't think i could do that to friend beads who struggles but thank you thank you. i'm not sure i knew you're a survivor of ra. sa as in sra or sa as in sexual abuse? Horrible horrible you went through that. Makes me so sad sick.

T confuses me that maybe some of what i know i picked up on from the universe. i think that's not right thing to say to me. She doesn't know the details. She doesn't know me. She just plunges in no regard for my fears. She says smart things but also makes me worry so much. When i don't know what's real even tho i do, how can she say maybe it's not?? ARGH!! i don't know why that came up right now while talking to you, sorry.

i don't know what to do about her. i'm going to my appointment tomorrow but it's like every time i doubt but go then doubt more but go. Not sure it's good for me to see someone who says those things and thinks everyone has parts. i don't disagree but wrong thing to say to someone who doesn't know where she fits. i feels discounted. (How can i talk funny and still use big words??) What is WRONG with me? Why does she confuse me even more? i want someone who knows where i fit. i think i question all the time cuz no one's gotten it right yet and told me why it's right. WE know. Some in me know and some just don't. ARGH!!

Sorry friend beads. Thank you too.