i think you should think about this for a while before making a decision. Ask yourself what you hope to get out of it. If you could have anything you wanted, what would you hope for? That might help you see clearly whether you have any unrealistic expectations and also help you see possible outcomes and how you might feel about them so you can decide if it's worth the risk.

i dunno if that made sense (lol) but i guess i'm trying to say do what you want but just be sure your eyes are wide open before you do it. Whatever you decide and whatever happens we'll be here for you.