You are not alone and it was never about you, it was always about the perps. Yes, they have a sick gift for picking and choosing children least likely to tell and very often these are children who have been abused by others and are fearful, have been forced into a fearful place and vulnerable. But it is still always about the choices the perpeTRAITORS make.
My list: grandfather, father, mother, brothers, brother's friend, cousin, janitor in school, suspect others.
IT WAS NOT MY FAULT AND NOR WAS IT YOURS! I hope you can believe that even if just a little bit. It takes time and hearing it over and over again - it wasn't your fault and it was nothing you did. if safe