I have made a mistake i cannot turn around. I am still in love with my ex. Now i am with someone else and i am stuck with them. I find myself crying all the time, i have hurt myself, drank until i passed out. I find myself looking forward all day to just being able to go to sleep so i can see him in my dreams... He was always there for me and still was. i got scared and stuck and got married, i could not get out of it he would talk to me aftter this happend and hug me and we would cry in each others arms knowing nothing can ever happen again.. Due to me being absolutely stuck he now has given up on me and stopped talking to me.. I was heartbroken before but now i have nothing else to break. I just feel empty, lost and alone. I wish i could go to sleep and wake up in the life i dream of. that my dreams could be the reality and my life could be my nightmare...