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Originally Posted by MeSo
No, not ok, don't know why
keep trying to post and can't...erase, sit, stare, type, erase
not ok at all! (but ty for asking)
teary and crying today, don't know why
overwhelmed with don't know what
WHY must i be such a mystery to myself? IF i made my parts (if i have them), why don't they just tell me my life?! WHY do i have to wonder all the time about my life??? i'm sick of this! IF what i've thought happened to me actually happened, WHY can't i just know it? Knowing but not knowing. i don't know who i are anymore. i don't know if i ever did. i'm so tired of it all. So so tired.
tears trickling down my face...why? i don't CARE! i'm just crazy...and i don't know why i should be alive for this.
i can't think.
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MeSo, I feel the same way, same reasons. I have no answers, no insiders knowledge to help, but i wish I did. All I can tell you is that you are not alone. I wonder a lot about "parts." They have free will, don't they? They inhabit a world inside that belongs just to them. I don't know what I really think, but I also just wonder who belongs to whom. Maybe I should erase this, as you erase your words. Maybe I'll leave them and you erase them if you want.