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Originally Posted by amaviena
The voice in my head says, "You're not okay, you're not okay, you're not okay."
I try to ignore it. When I sleep, I sleep too little or too much. It's never enough. I have the most vivid dreams. Negative and positive.
I've been steadily gaining weight for a year. I'd say a pound a day, but that's an exaggeration.
I have to write out a budget over and over and over again. I called my mom at work today and asked her how much the water/electric was and when it was due and when she told me she'd tell me when I got home I broke down and cried.
I've picked up smoking again. I resent myself because of it.
I've walked more than an hour every day this week. I only feel good when I'm walking even though I'm fat and exhausted the whole time.
Can someone tell me the Lamictal ramp up? I quit my lamictal over 3 months ago and I'm ashamed to tell my doctor. Maybe I should call my pharmacy.
I feel crazy. Crazy is a nasty mean word.
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If you went off your med. Especially the mood stablizer (I'm on too) you are going to feel all wacked out.
If you don't tell you doctor how are they going to help you?
Weight gain - I'll not take anything that has a side effect of....
Why did you stop Lamitcal?
Just asking - I didn't go off med.s but had a messed up Phsyc who let me go without for 2 weeks - I went totally into almost a state of dementcha
Of course I have a new Phsyc he's great.
I went today increase and added another medication.
Just when I think I've finally gotten balanced out - my brain starts to get immuned to a med....
Hope I haven't off stepped my bounds.