alot of dark thoughts have been swirling in my head lately...

i cant help but to keep getting reminded that im all alone in this world now. my family is dead, and now it's just me. i'll go to bed at night and dream im with my parents, and then wake up and slowly be reminded that their dead, and i have no one to call.

i cant really think of more than 2 people who would go to my funeral. actually, im lying, i cant even think of one.

i feel like a parasite.

cant help but to think all i do is work, and sadly working is really doing nothing i want to contribute to the world. i sell porn and sandwhiches... just helping people isolate more and get fat.

god i hate these little reality checks.

i'll be doing fine, and then these little thoughts just creep back up on me. it's like a circle. i'll work through these, and then i'll be back.

i miss being doped up.