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Jul 22, 2009, 02:43 AM
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alot of dark thoughts have been swirling in my head lately...
i cant help but to keep getting reminded that im all alone in this world now. my family is dead, and now it's just me. i'll go to bed at night and dream im with my parents, and then wake up and slowly be reminded that their dead, and i have no one to call. i cant really think of more than 2 people who would go to my funeral. actually, im lying, i cant even think of one. i feel like a parasite. cant help but to think all i do is work, and sadly working is really doing nothing i want to contribute to the world. i sell porn and sandwhiches... just helping people isolate more and get fat. god i hate these little reality checks. i'll be doing fine, and then these little thoughts just creep back up on me. it's like a circle. i'll work through these, and then i'll be back. i miss being doped up.
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Jul 22, 2009, 02:55 AM
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((((((perhapsbelligerent)))))))
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Jul 22, 2009, 03:08 AM
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 ((((((perhapsbelligerent)))))))
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Jul 22, 2009, 09:52 AM
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(((((perhapsbelligerent)))))
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Jul 22, 2009, 11:22 AM
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perhapsbelligerent:
>i'll be doing fine, and then these little thoughts just creep back up on me. it's like a >circle. i'll work through these, and then i'll be back I know that situation all too well. I have been having a constant battle with these negative thoughts. I posted a message about that in these forums and was given some very good suggestions. Its like a constant group of thoughts, pushing each other around up there, fighting for center stage. The fight continues because one thought never gets center stage for very long. I am working on this because I am tired of it. I want to be able to control my thoughts - after all, it is MY brain! Hang in there. While you have a job, why not look around and see if there's anything else out there you can do. I know its a tough economy now, but perhaps you can find something while you're still at this job. AND - best of all, you can be choosy since you are still working!
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Jul 23, 2009, 11:03 AM
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gentle hugs....
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