Im so sorry you feel like this. I know how hard it can be and is. I never seemed to fit in at all. I know you feel like your not going to have any fun at all but maybe you will. I hope you can be with some friends or find some new ones. I wish you lots of courage and strength. We all are always here and you can come post anytime your having a hard time. You can PM me anytime if you want to.....it wasnt so long ago I was where you are so I do understand.