I'm actually about to start my second year in college now and it's still just as bad as ever. But I talked with a friend last night who has chronic depression. She was pretty mad at me because I told her I've been refusing to get help for a while. She's convinced me to do someting about it, so I'm going to talk to the couselors on campus when the year starts. I'll be honest though, I feel really, really nervous and scared about doing this. I don't really know where it'll lead, but I guess I'll try. Just... I don't know why it's so hard to imagine talking to someone about it.