I put the trigger just in case

I haven't been able to post...or even read posts in weeks.

Not really able to vent...too exhausted and emotionally drained about my situation, but if I can attempt to type and get some out it'd be good because I'm extremely down...so here goes.

I put the trigger there because a few weeks ago I cut up my thighs pretty bad, which I posted due to the situation with my boy/f attempting suicide (really it was the arguing prior)

Things have been going really poorly and the other night I really had a hard time again stopping myself. You're probably wondering ...why post here when this is si? Well I am struggling more with the depression and I feel just numb with everyday life.

My memory is shot and I feel lost in my everyday life. I guess that's what being overwhelmed is...huh.

Sorry if this comes off complaining or whatever, but it's just beginning to affect my life too much again.

I know I got support in the past and it's helped I guess I'm hoping I can get clear.

I know that replying to other ppl's posts helped me...so I started to do that.

I need a new therapist, I still need to get a neuropsychologist (which I had called 2 and both took my info never called me back)

I called an advocate for help with disability and referred to a lawyer for help. Called there and played tag.

I have to take my son to a bunch of doctor appointments. Also, camp will begin, which means at 5 I'll have to drive 45minutes away in rush hour to get him.

I have to call and apply for state funds for him to see if I can get help to pay for camp.

I have to come up with money to pay for braces for him (one of the appts for him)

I have to take him for bloodwork.

I have to take him for a hearing test cuz he's having problems with hearing.

I have to take him to an eye doctor ..he has full cataracts.

hmmm Lots of stuff...getting overwhelmed by my list cuz I just want to crawl back to bed.

lovely.

My boy friend is doing really badly...he's aware...aware of what he had done and he's extremely angry.

Won't go there...that is overwhelming for me.

Well I guess I got a bit out...thanks for listening to my junk.

Hope everyone is well.

Take care
Eva