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Oh dear, I'm so sorry. Tell your T that you're NOT working on trauma stuff right now, you've got too much other stuff going on. Sounds like you need more support for dealing with pregnancy and all the other stuff.

I'm glad you're holding on, continue to do that.

Pegasus is also right - if you're experiencing suicidal thoughts, it might be best to get to a hospital or talk to a doctor immediately. There is such thing as hormones during pregnancy making your moods worse, and for some people they can get severe depression after giving birth. Get the support you need right now - you deserve all the help you can get.