Thank you for replying Vickie! Yes I kept checking the forum but no one ever replied this topic maybe isn't very popular? I'm not sure....because it should be! Self-esteem is everything...

I'm glad to hear you worked through your self-esteem issues...I am hoping I can start down the same path. The part that confuses me though, is that when I look back on my child hood, my parents always did their best to build me up...they were always the ones that praised me...always there at piano recitals and art contests. So I'm not sure what happened...but ever since I was little I struggled to connect to my peers, and I think that is the underlying problem. I am constantly judging myself based on what other people do. Or even worse...I judge myself based on who I used to be! I hate myself for what I have become because the person I was 5 years ago would have been such a better person than who I am now. My parents even say sometimes "who are you and what have you done with our daughter." (Well, my dad says that when he's angry.)

Anyway, thank you for the advice. I'll go to the library and see what I can find to help. I'm also going to a counselor (trying a new one, again) this week, so we'll see how that goes.