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Originally Posted by white_iris
Perhaps part of my recovery plan is to accept what has happened to me as painful and horrible and be ok with other ppls stories and not feel i am not as "damaged" as I feel i am and because of that worth the space i take up on this earth.
sorry, tough T session today and so in need of a shoulder and a good long cry......bad stuff did happen to the little/young/teen-----and grief is the hardest thing to work thru right now........... 
Very sorry for the long post........don't even know if i responded right....  |
white_iris,
Thank you for you poignant reply...your honesty is very much appreciated, very much. Yes, your reply was eloquent.
Length is never a reason to apologize for a post.
Just my own experience, but when I stopped hiding what was horrific in my childhood, and let go of the secrets...it's when I really took a giant step in healing; it may have been a shaky step but it was a step.
After the anger came the grief, an overwhelming sense of loss, and it devastated me. Keeping the secrets was familiar, no matter how uncomfortable it was in doing it...bringing them out into the open forced me to look at things, really look at those years...and it took three days of vomiting before I could continue with T's help.
This was all right. It was a momentous acknowledgment on my part...and there was no way that I could sugar coat it for anyone's consumption, including my own.
Standing with you, in spirit...wishing it could be in person.
Cry, white_iris, you have every right to cry
In Peace