If you're afraid you won't remember anything, just write it down. Write both down if necessary. I think Ama was referring to your ideal meds cocktail, but you need to let the doc know about your desire not to comply with taking your meds and ask his/her opinion about your mental status. If the doc says it couldn't possibly be made up and you need to take your meds to prevent relapse, listen to the doc!

I know I'm tempted to go off mine when I'm depressed or high.

Take care berries.