So here I thought I was up and I was for sure. But not this morning. This morning I felt terrible. And now I feel as if the energy is starting to come back. Am I going to go back and forth within a day. I don't know if I can handle that. It makes me more tired trying to figure out where I'm at and where I'm going than to just be one or the other. I was wide awake at bed time took ativan and benedryl and it ddnt do anything so I took another ativan. Finally fell asleep. Ddnt hear the alarm but woke up on time anyway so that was good. One of my meds is making me feel ill. I don't want to eat for fear I'll puke it up. I'm not feeling well right now. I think the whole thing is a bunch of hooha. I don't know if this is all worth it. And my head hurts.