Hi W_I
Why would anyone dread reading your posts? You need to stop shuttin yourself up... I know: Easy for me to say. But you know what? The times that you feel like that needy bothersome person that you don't want be, is the time that you should post more. Any time spent in the corner is too long. What you really need to do “for better or worse” is to try to share what's bothering you. “The inside voice of despair and doom...” tells me how you're feeling, but not why. The “deep dark demon” sounds more like a reason... I think you should post it, “For better or worse”.
It's hard to sit by while you're feeling so bad, and not know why, or what to say.