I did meet with my T last night.
She is frustrated with me but hell, this is a frustrating time with me.
She promised me she can help me. She said I just have to believe.
She is the only one in my life I trust completely...
So, I am going to try and have faith.
It will be a battle to the end...but the end she says will come with a brighter and happier future.
Thanks for everyone who cares.
Sorry I have been so up and down lately.