WHY ME? WHY AGAIN?

Just wanted to repost because I put some things in my last post which is why it got deleted, and I understand that.
I am having a difficult time.
I want help and at the same time I want everyone to leave me be.
I hate myself, my life, everything.
I tried to fire my T yesterday and she got very mean and pissed at me. She was really upset and that in turn upset me.
I don't know where to turn...or who to turn to anymore.
Can I say I want out...without this being deleted? because I do...I am weak.

I know what you mean life itself has rules. Just have to learn them and follow them. Then everything will be ok! This is stupid but when I think of me being here. I say to myself "It could be worst?" When something abads happens. Like if I acidently put my foot in dog ****, I say to myself "It could be worse!" Like I could of fell over and put my face in it instead, but didn't. So just try remember that there are so and so out comes, which one do you want?
((((((((((((((((((sj0401))))))))))))))))))))))))

I did meet with my T last night.
She is frustrated with me but hell, this is a frustrating time with me.
She promised me she can help me. She said I just have to believe.
She is the only one in my life I trust completely...
So, I am going to try and have faith.
It will be a battle to the end...but the end she says will come with a brighter and happier future.
Thanks for everyone who cares.
Sorry I have been so up and down lately.

((((sj)))) Glad you talked it out with her! My t and I are having a difficult time right now, but we're going to hang in there. I think there always come some rough spots in therapy. We're there for a reason, right!? Please continue working through the difficulties, your t promises you a bright future so hang onto that. Take care, be safe and HUGS!