   (((((tmac87))))) - You did the right thing for your daughter - she is with a good family, she is safe, she is being cared for properly - you acted in her best interest. Now is NOT the time to be having a philosophical debate with others or yourself about whether or not you love your daughter or yourself, or what purpose you serve on this earth. Your depression is NOT going to allow you to think clearly about anything. The only thing that matters right now is getting your depression under control. Make certain that you tell the nurses and doctors precisely how you are feeling. Personally, I am hypersensitive to many meds - those that are supposed to calm me down (like Klonopin) make me manic and agitated instead - put me on the ceiling - make me want to scream and pace and peel the paint off the walls - even some anesthetics keep me awake rather than putting me to sleep - other meds that are supposed to elevate my mood put me right in the basement of depression. If you have had adverse reactions or suffered unusual side effects from any medications in the past, make certain that the doctors and nurses know about it so they can modify your meds and dosages appropriately - make them listen to you. Please keep posting and let us know what's being done to help you.
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"I walked a mile with Pleasure; she chattered all the way, But left me none the wiser for all she had to say. I walked a mile with Sorrow and ne'er a word said she; But oh, the things I learned from her when Sorrow walked with me!"
(Robert Browning Hamilton; "Along The Road")
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