PFM I know that it is really scary. Your having some anxiety over this, which is understandable. This man has had so much control over you.Your husband needs help for his abuse. It is not fair for you nor your kids to live in an enviorment like that. I know that your probably feeling alone in this, but your not. There are plenty of resources out there to help you. You haven't ruined anyone's life. You have helped yourself, and your kids. I would also say that maybe your husband is going to have a chance to see how he has treated you, and the kids in this relationship. He needs a lot of help with his anger. Your husband needs to see this for himself. He needs to fix this. You can't do that for him. You, and the kids deserve a safe, and loving home.

PFM just realize that you are not his punching bag, and your babies don't want to see their mommy hurt. Keep posting, we will be here for you.