Quote:
Originally Posted by BlueMoon6
I had a thought...maybe it doesnt fit, but maybe. Do you (as I do) ever get a "rush" feeling from the dramatics of a situation? Even if it is a difficult, painful situation, like your divorce. When it is over, and I am left with myself, I feel suicidal and depressed. No more drama, even if the drama was horrible, and no more "rush" and desperation. Its a sort of crash back to daily life and how to move on and cope with the daily rountine.
Your daughter sounds adorable. That is such a cute, adorable age with girls. She sounds like a little doll. And you are taking the best care of her. And making sure she doesnt see your very lowest moods is a very responsible thing to do. My kids have seen me in terrible moods and I regret that  You are an amazing, giving and loving mother. I mean that. I hope you can give yourself the same loving care you are giving your sweet daughter 
And if you ever figure out a way to get her to clean up her room....please post...Im still working on THAT one! |
You hit the nail on the head. For years, I've dealt with the day to day turmoil of dealing with my husband (well, now ex-husband)....and I learned after he left, that I had never been so down....part of it was the realization that I am left with just ME and discovering who I am again. That led me back to who I was before I met my husband...and all of those triggery memories of my past that were suppressed because I was too busy dealing with the daily drama of my life.
Then, there was all the drama of the separation...and his erratic behavior....all a distraction from the underlying pain and suffering.
Now I'm just left with me. And all that unresolved baggage - as well as dealing with everything alone....it's overwhelming....and depressing.
Thank you for your kind, loving words about my daughter and my parenting. Nobody's perfect, but our love is....at least til she hits her teenage years, I suppose! LOL.
(((( HUGS ))))