I have had serveral discussion with my boyfriend about bipolar and everytime he says he is going to be more caring and understanding and he will demonstrate that to me.
when i have my moments, i am trying to recongnize when the hypromania/mania are coming on so i can better deal with it and try some of my copeing skill, i have learned over the past few months.
The Hypromania is much harder to cope and deal with. I have told him that, buth either way he kicks me when i am down, makes rude and hurtful comments and laugh at me.
Than the next day after he appolgizes and the cycle continues.
I dont know what to do. Anyone have any ideas. I am standing on my last leg with him!
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Sometimes I am high and sometimes I am low.
Everyone around me but I am always alone.
Hour by hour and week by week,
I deal with myself and I never feel complete.
I want to be normal; I want to be sane,
No matter what I do, I always feel the pain.
“Stop the mania and fight back,
It’s all in your head”
I wish I could do it; I would rather go to bed.
Sometimes I am high and sometimes I am low,
I wish they could see me, so I won’t be alone. 
By Pam
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