Berries you're NOT a ----up sweetie, of course you're not hon. You have mental health problems but it doesn't mean that because you feel like you CAN'T do the things you want at this oint in your life doesn't mean it will always be that way Speaking as a person who has suffered mental health problems, still does and is healing - I would also say you CAN do the things you want when you are ready, therefore it's giving you hope and reassurance and not too much pressure. Also speaking from experience please know you WILL be able to do what you want in the future sweetheart. I'm sorry you are feeling a bit unsure right now, all the best to you, healing and better understanding for all of us Ophelia xxx