Sorry if you feel that way I do suffer from OCD and things are the way thay are to me black and white.....but I'm also a great beleaiver that you have to find the posatives in life or you'll never get out of depression.....I do my reserch on disorder and I have been known to reserch for months on topics I love medical infomation its calming, soothing to know theres a reason that is not just my mum I use to be like you and blamed my mum but I changed my perpective and it changed the out come I'm now getting a relationship with my mum for the first time in 32 years.....ITs never too late....its not perfect but its way better than it was before and I trying to stand my ground and tell her nicly when she over step the boundries while ignoring the things that have alway hurt so badly with her......I dont feel love for my mum the way I love my kids and partner but maybe one day it will be there......

sorry if my OCD had more to say than I wanted to let it say but I'm trying to fit and it seem like I still cant NOT upset people even online.....which is why I avoide people normally I dont want to leave this site I have left several other site cause my OCD thoughts up set tomany people all I can do is say sorry .... the truth is you have not said you understand my point of view either the truth is I understand your point of view I was there once before I learnt more about mental illness and before I learnt more about a posiative attuide but yes I can be ridgid on my thinking You would not a responce from my OCD 2y ago or even 4 y ago wow you would have hated me with out a doubt.....