wow..im so happy i joined this site..i get a lot of insights especially from vickie...i can feel your pain too elysium..well i dont know much how to give advice..it seems like most people here are so full of wisdom..but i just want you to know that i know and understand how u feel...and to vickie,thank you very much..i benefited from your advice too..my father used to be an alcoholic (he's on therapy now)and my mom the doctor said has "mild psychosis"...well,it terribly hurts.and i long for the love of my parents..i long for someone i can lean on..someone stronger than me (and suppose to be,they're my parents) but it seems like i am the one who has to be strong for them..it's not easy.......seeing dad hit my mom,my brother and my sister (and he hit me too) when he was drunk..but when he's not,he's the perfect father..he used to be my hero..but alcohol slowly destroyed him and made him violent..i'm just glad that he agreed to have therapy and it's been almost a month since he started. my mom is under therapy too..sometimes im scared for myself...what if me too?