Hi my names Alyssa and I suffer from ocd and anxiety/panic attacks....my ocd is so bad today I missed out on a family thanksgiving dinner because my obsessions were so bad. A common symptom of ocd is intrusive, unwanted thoughts....and I am plagued with them.
I've suffered with this my entire life on and off, but a few years ago when I was 17 it hit me harder than it ever had and its never really seemed to give me any peace whatsoever since then. What I'm really tripping on right now is the thought of yelling out very innappropriate stuff in public. It limits me from going places. I also get the awful violent thoughts about hurting loved ones and my cat and weird things like that as well. I am not that kind of person so it really freaks me out when I get these thougths. Although I am reasured by doctors that it is normal to have these thoughts with ocd....but they don't feel normal...and sometimes it feel like I'll never get better, and I feel very alone. I've been on meds since I was 12 but eventually each of them stop working and I am left to fend for myself again. I don't know what kind of response I want from this post....I guess it just makes me feel better when others share their experiences with me. I hope everyone is dealing, and having a much better Thanksgiving than I am!