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Originally Posted by justfloating
am i a mess because i'm depressed ... or am i depressed because i'm a mess?  Why do I have the feeling I'm not going to truly get my life together until after I graduate? Why does it seem that these are going to be four years -- four years that were supposed to be among the best of my life -- that I'm not going to want to look back on? My future seems so bright, so wonderful, but my present ... my present is a joke, something I have to survive for another year and a half before I can move on to better things. A year and a half of waiting, day in and day out, to be able to live.  I've tried so hard to make things better but the best I can muster for myself is indifference. I just want to graduate and get the heck out of here!
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Never thought of it the way you put it, "Am I a mess because I'm depressed or depressed cause I'm a mess". Sounds like a good question. People always look back and are not always happy with the past. But you can control the future. You are in school which is a good thing. Even though you don't think the present time is good you know your future is bright. Take things one day at a time and remind yourself that once you finish school you have the ability to leave if that is what you wish to do.
