Thanks, everyone....

It's hard to kick this feeling of disgust. I've been in tears a lot today over it all. I just feel so awful...especially when T and I JUST talked about this two days prior.

And New Years was the one year anniversary from that yucky incident with my husband and a neighbor. I'm just dealing with some really awful feelings right now.

Amazing enough, I am also missing my husband (well, now ex) terribly. Even though it was an unhealthy relationship and even most recently, he said some awful, awful things to me (like telling me to die in hell - but he apologized and said he didn't meant it - typical abusive pattern)...he was as close to comfortable as I've ever been in a relationship....I hate feeling this way.

I will talk through this with T....Thursday seems so far away. If I can muster up the courage to bring it up in group on Tuesday, perhaps I'll do that. I don't know.