Went to my gp and he's signed me off work for two weeks.

Had a challenging afternoon. Got to my university's student health department at 1.50pm. By 2.15pm I'd gotten so anxious I'd scratched the skin off the top of my hand. My psychiatrist finally arrived at 2.20pm but then she chatted to the other staff so didn't call me until 2.25pm. By this point I was panicking. Talked to her about what's been happening and she read the report a&e had sent her. Then it was 2.45pm so she told me to come back in two weeks, got the receptionist to call me a taxi and phoned the psychologist to say I was on my way.

Was completely freaking out in the taxi. Got to the hospital at 3.10pm and ran to the psychology department. My psychologist asked me what felt like a million questions about how I was feeling and she read the emails I'd printed out and the other stuff I'd written. She asked me if I felt like self harming or was having suicidal thoughts today and I said yes. We went through all the distractions I usually do, but I told her they're not working at the moment. She then asked if I would go to a&e again if I felt like I was going to act on my thoughts. I said I might but I didn't know because they weren't very helpful. She got a bit worried at that point and I told her I didn't know if I could trust myself to stay safe. Then she went to find her supervisor, who told her she should phone my psychiatrist. They talked on the phone and decided they would contact the crisis team. So now someone is going to come to my flat tomorrow afternoon to assess me. After making sure I'd be okay she let me leave at 5pm.