Well, I did leave a message with t that I was dreading our session with our son this afternoon and that I was really worried about how I would handle it.

But I went . . . . He did keep the session a bit lighter today, so I did okay. At the end of the session he told me he did get my message, and that I've got to stop "that numbing stuff". He also told me he's changed his mind about how to handle this whole issue with our son. It is a relief and a load off.

My sister said the transplant team will be sending me the swab to test if I am a match as a bone marrow donor. I hope I am.

T said again, I've got a lot on my plate right now. Handling all of these events is difficult. I'm still pretty numb about things and depression level is still high, but I am relieved about my son's situation.