I'm very much the same, although i've been with my current boyfriend for coming up to 2 years, which is a first for me! He is very tolerant of me being BPD, and it's taken a while but he's proved to me that not all men are the same, and i'm not unloveable.

But when we first met i was VERY scared, especially after my ex trampled all over my heart... I found myself falling for him very quickly, and that scared me. I wanted to be with him all the time, and that also scared me. But i stuck with it, and tried my best to control my feelings. It really helped that he knew i was scared, and why. I don't think i could have done it without him knowing what was going on inside my head.

Anyway, sorry for the rant. Hope this is helpful to you.

Stick with it Loveperfect, and good luck!