Is it normal that I kind of want something to be wrong with me? Like, I feel like (well, I know I have something) but I feel like I want to be in therapy but I don't want to go into it because I feel like I'm being selfish if it turns out there's nothing wrong with me but I don't know if there is but I just it's... It's like I sorta think that there might be but when I think of going into therapy I get relaxed again before I get anxious again and then I just... It's hard to explain but does anyone get what I mean?