Is it normal?

Is it normal that I kind of want something to be wrong with me? Like, I feel like (well, I know I have something) but I feel like I want to be in therapy but I don't want to go into it because I feel like I'm being selfish if it turns out there's nothing wrong with me but I don't know if there is but I just it's... It's like I sorta think that there might be but when I think of going into therapy I get relaxed again before I get anxious again and then I just... It's hard to explain but does anyone get what I mean?

Maybe. But that is why they have pdocs. They can diagnose you...and treat you. They have quizzes on here to help you determine if you might kinda narrow things down for you before you visit a pdoc. If nothing else, they are great self awareness tools.

If I think there is something wrong that is causing problems in my life, I would want it to be true instead of being a product of my imagination.

Yeah and i understand you and i have sort of the same problem, where i want bad things to happen just so that i can do something about it

I get this all the time like mind start raceing and tell me to call the doctor and ask for a doctor appointment and when I went to my doctor he said It was ocd do you have ocd?

I think I know what you mean.
I know my panic attacks and depression are real, and when I'm experiencing them I REALLY don't want to be. When I'm feeling good though, I almost want there to be something wrong with me, and I haven't the slightest clue why. I always feel horrible and selfish when I feel like that, knowing there are people out there that really do have it bad and they never asked for it.

Just for the record though, I never want a panic attack. Those a HORRIBLE! And exhausting.

You know, I use to feel like this when I feel lonely. Maybe that is PART of it.

You know, I use to feel like this when I feel lonely. Maybe that is PART of it.