Thanks guys... I really appreciate the support and affirmations of what I did succeed in doing. I do need to remember like you say TheByzantine... sort term discomfort that I can manage. I was proud of myself but it just got lost in the mess at the MH office.

On my way home I had to stop at the store and they didn't have what I needed which meant I had to go to another one. I was affirming myself at every step the fact that I was able to compose myself enough to go into the store in the first place. Coping with having to go to a second store and actually doing it instead of loosing it and running home without what I needed was pretty amazing actually.

I am slowly recovering here. My son is an angel. I apologized to him when I picked him up after school. Admited I take advantage of him and allow myself to vent pent up rage at him and that it wasn't fair and I was sorry. He was forgiving and understood cuz he knew how stressed I was about going to the hospital. He is even making me dinner tonight cuz he knows how tired I am. We are going to watch some tv tonight. I love him so.

Thanks again my friends. It is so good to be able to come here and know I am understood. No one in my life would get it if I tried to explain it. Well I guess my son gets it and that is a mixed blessing. Hate that he has to go through this with me but our bond is strong and he knows I love him dearly.

Wishing you all well and happy tomorrows.