I'm at a stage of my life where I'm not sure what I really am. I'm 18, and frankly rather confused. I've had a super-charged sexual interest in everything since a young age. When I was very young, I would play games with one male friend I had in which we would suck on each others penises. I would later move and do this with another boy while in grade 3. Around this time i had my first encounter with a girl when, in grade 3, an 18 year old made out with me and let me fondle her breasts and pelvic area (I didn't really know what I was doing clearly). After that I would receive oral sex from a step-sister and often make up and have pretend sex (genital rubbing) with her. I had found myself craving sexual attention from these encounters and would eventually begin to have my cousin preform oral sex on me when I was young. I grew out of this but around grade 7 I had another sexual encounter with another man but was not able to reach orgasm yet. I resumed actions with my cousins and he made me cum through oral often. I eventually began relationships with girls and attributed by past encounters to just wanting pleasure. I'm now in a 2 year committed relationship but enjoy gay porn and often have gay fantasies. More and more lately I have been wishing for a gay encounter so I can preform oral sex on a man until ejaculation. My girlfriend and I are very in love but these feelings confuse me. A little help?