Apparently you love your husband so much that your willing to forgive his betrayal. And that kind of desperate love must hurt more than your letting on here. But i agree with all the others and think that you cant force a person to love you. Wht will you do once ur kids grow up? how will make him stay then...your holding on to some very vague hope that he still cares for u or u can still make him change his mind right? I personally do not think tht can happen if the only reason he stil hasn left is his children. But if he does stay with you, i wonder wht kind of marriage you will have. Will u be able to trust him again? Ask yourself these questions and think about it. your only making yourself miserable by this. You should let him go if u love him and give him his chance and let him know how much you love him. And time will heal your hurt and give a new chance at life.