hugs coming from me as well. its such a good thing that you are reaching out to everyone on here. you need to remind yourself that it has only been a little over a month... things like this don't ease over in just a few weeks. don't beat yourself up over having to start at phase one "all over again."

keep writing and talking. that is so important. it's when you internalize it and pretend as though nothing even happened that things take a turn for the weird and dangerous. like others have said before me, stay safe, ok?

and she isn't your friend. people do not make up things like rape unless they are COMPLETELY sociopathic or very very sick. she obviously knows you and should know better than to think that you aren't telling anything but the truth.

stay well, stay safe, and keep writing. update us all