I wish he would have read the bipolar book. Understand I am not crazy. I just need love communication and support. I'm so confused by it all. I mean I thought he loved me and would be there. He said so. Then he wasn't nice was ignoring and avoiding when I was in a depression. He said hed talk to me if it was my real self not the alternate personalit. The night before we had conversation I tried to explain that my altered thoughts were from bipolar. Talking helped gain perspective. Next day he said hed only talk if it was not my alternate personality. Is the other personality gone. I said I'd think clear from now on. It was ok for a day then it all started again. Not speaking to me. I tried to communicate. It didn't work I couldn't take it anymore. I broke it off. Then regret and try to take back nothing nothing not for a week then a sorry for treating you bad. Better friends than nothing. Then the same after a day. Not speaking. Not wantong to work it out. Me trying. Then all of sudden he has girlfriend but this was after he said he didn't. So I try some more and he responds with no more leave me alone I'm with someone and happy but he had just accepted my friend request where we met. I ask why what e wants from me. Nothing he said and then said my other personality. I don't have another personality I am not crazy not crazy. What if I am what if it was all me but I didn't think so. I thought he said friends and then he ddnt even want that after I try to talk as friends. I'm still a little confused. How do you go from loving so much or saying you do to being so happy with someone else almost overnight. He said he couldn't get over me that fast but then there he was in a couple. Not wanting me around. I'll never understand completely what happened. I really don't understand why. Is it really me bcz he thinks I'm crazy or is is bcz it like what he said that o deserve better than him. I feel I need to know which one for sure. Because if its the bipolar then I don't know. I can't change that. I will always be that. It is not another personality its not. I'm not crazy. But why am I questioning this. Why won't it stop eating away. Ok I just had to speak about it somewhere. Get it out of my head to say it outloud to someone that may listen may understand.