thank you for answering!

well, i need to share with you i think. i was petrified as well. i was petrified to rock the boat. i was petrified to stir the muddied waters. i was petrified that i wouldn't survive knowing. i was petrified about everything.

it has been hard. you know, i lost five months of my life, ended a marrriage and remarried another being DID. yeah, i was petrified it would happen again just by talking about things...and stirring things up.

it didn't prove true for me. in fact, i blamed insiders for making me live a life i didn't create. i found out last month that it was so SAVE MY LIFE. i couldn't believe it. i'm so glad i'm getting in deep now. i'm trusting this wonderful system more and more...respecting it.

i had/have the same fears as you, but it's been the best thing i've ever done. t helped me to realize that with my awareness, those things weren't likely to happen again because my life is SAFE now.

so, if you feel you have a safe life, i suggest you delve in and find out about the system that helped to save your life and sanity. i'm sure it's wonderous. our inside helpers deserve understanding and recognition after everything they've done for us. heck, i think they deserve medals!

it's hard. it's more than hard. i believe the "core or orginal child" here is known. she was the one that went inside and is deeper than all others and doesn't even peek at the world anymore. i don't know that she'll ever be reached. she had to go away. she didn't want to die.

i would suggest that, even though things are running pretty smoothly, you get to know why you are many. it's been the best thing i've done so far. the most beautifully painful meaningful thing that i've ever done.

be safe. gl.

kd