On the Dean's list, and you have a dream. That shows that the core of you is working perfectly and its just the current crap that's messing things up. Might be a good idea for a while to try to find another T, someone you like, and if the Lexapro worked before, try that again. Family stuff can sometimes be fixed, other times, its best to not spend tons of time on something that can't change, you know? Life can sometimes feel like its working against every positive thing your trying to do. Don't give up. Tell us more about your "friend", that seems to be a potential positive.