I don't understand. Logically I kind of do, but emotionally I don't at all. Everyone was allowed to hurt me, so why is it so wrong if I hurt myself? I'm not doing anything that hasn't already been done in some way, shape, or form. Is it wrong to want the release that it will give? People say not to do it because it will hurt your friends/family. Well it was my family that hurt me already so I don't see how they have a say in anything that goes on in my life. As for friends, if I'm careful enough they will never know. And it isn't like I'm ever able to really keep friends when I move anyway and I plan on moving in another year and a half for school. Why did everyone think it was okay for other people to hurt me (implicit in that when I asked for help, no one did anything, ever.) But people have such a problem with me doing something that is so much less than they ever did? Can someone please explain it to me? Explain it so my emotional parts can understand why it's wrong?