Thanks LoneScout. Some how I missed your post.

I'm just starting now to see a volunteer M.A. counselor. He's not licensed but works under his supervisors licenses. It's a non-profit organization and he said there's funding available for certain illnesses so we just have to find one that fits and there won't be a charge (or very small) since I don't make much money at all (about $200 a month until things pick up at work). I live in a VERY rural area so finding groups like this is few and far between, but the state is very good about getting people help when they need it since there's not a lot of people and even less that seek help except in the two main cities of our state. I just didn't know about these things.

I have 2 friends I talk to every day. Without them I don't know where I'd be now. I don't really know how I survived without them.

I got a CBT workbook and am "trying" to work in it every day. So far it's like once a week that I remember it xD. I'm having a hard time concentrating and staying on task with it though.

Thanks for replying Scout. I really appreciate it. You're a good person