I'm SO sorry about everything!!! SO SORRY! Listen, I feel like I've been through the pits of hell. I've somehow gotten through that for the most part, and I can say that life's better. Life is so much better. I am your age NLS, and everything just becomes more managable as the days go on. Just talking to people helped me a LOT. Just keep posting, you'll get through this!!!!!
Hang on to happiness and just please stay with us!!