My life is taking my strength out of me this week. I just don't have much left, physically.

I just got back from vacation a couple of weeks ago, but I feel like I need another one.

I talked to my T today about everything that is going on, and I told him that it is too tiring to feel like every day is a fight and I just want to slip into my mind and make everyone leave me alone.

After I got home, I went to sleep for hours. I feel like my body is physically collapsing in on itself, as if I am a dying star, gone into super nova. I have put out so much energy over the course of my life just to stay alive that I am just collapsing.

I feel it physically, in my chest. If I didn't have bones, I would be a puddle.