So drained

My life is taking my strength out of me this week. I just don't have much left, physically.

I just got back from vacation a couple of weeks ago, but I feel like I need another one.

I talked to my T today about everything that is going on, and I told him that it is too tiring to feel like every day is a fight and I just want to slip into my mind and make everyone leave me alone.

After I got home, I went to sleep for hours. I feel like my body is physically collapsing in on itself, as if I am a dying star, gone into super nova. I have put out so much energy over the course of my life just to stay alive that I am just collapsing.

I feel it physically, in my chest. If I didn't have bones, I would be a puddle.

I wonder if the stress over your pdoc is contributing to the fatigue? I know when I have a lot of stress or I get overwhelmed, I get really tired from it. Take care!!

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My heart is with you. You are spent, dear one. Funny, I'm exhausted each time I see my therapist too.

Last week I would have said that I wasn't in the slightest depressed, in fact, I was a little up and we managed to get a ton of yard work done.

I think the depression has sneaked up on me and clobbered me over the head. One would think I would know how to deal with it by now.

I feel afraid, uneasy, irritated, unmotivated, and exhausted.

I hope you feel better soon. Depression IS very sneaky and it is amazing the effect it can have on us.